If anything is going to be my mantra for the next month, that’s it.
NanoWrimo is upon us once again and somehow, much like the past four years, October has managed to slip by me and I’m looking back at the month and scratching my head, realizing that all the planning and preparation I thought I’d do in October has not happened. My outlines have gathered a new layer of dust, the coffee in my cabinet is non-existent, my walls are lacking in the sticky note/writing inspiration front, and I’ve visited the forums maybe three times since the site revamp. In some ways, I’m doing all right. I know what I’m writing and I’m excited to write it. But I’d be lying if I said I didn’t feel like I’m going into this like a pantser (which for me, equals disaster).
I’ll admit I’m a little scared.
I have a 4 year losing streak for Nano and it’s been a while since I’ve written anything that I feel passionate about. Combine that with me at last starting this blog (something I’ve been meaning I do for the past 5 months) and you have a, frankly, nervous Chelsea. It seems like whenever I get to finally concentrate on writing something that I think I’m going to love, the fear of failure tries to push me back out the door. What if I don’t win NanoWrimo and don’t even get past day 1? What if this blog falls into the murky waters where all of my other blogs have sunken? What if my writing endeavors just…don’t happen?
But I’ve long since given up on waiting for the Nano fairies and the blog pixies to come through and grant me the time, ideas, and vision I might need to succeed on these writing endeavors. And so I’m going to give myself one piece of advice that might actually get me through this, despite mistakes, failures and other bumps.
It’s the best advice I can think of for myself, and the best I can give anyone else standing there looking at Nano or any other writing project and feeling the fear sinking in. Just start. The rest will come later.
Now, who’s with me?